Many times we envy the natural gifts of others, or try to emanate them. One may be a successful singer, musician, or writer, or they may have attained great wealth, and we wonder what we have done wrong or even see ourselves as failures. We have been created with our own unique set of talents, for a divine purpose. Envying others will not help us in any way to discover what those talents may be, in fact it will keep us from discovering the truth.
We were created with a purpose in mind, and the only way to discover that purpose is to go into the silence and let the voice within reveal it to us. If there was no purpose for your creation then you would not be here. God seeks to express himself in an infinite number of ways, through infinite creations of himself. By going back to the point of our creation, the wonders of the universe will be revealed to us.
I often use the analogy of a fibre optic lamp. Each fibre appears to have its own light but it is the light of the main base lamp, appearing as the many lights. It is at the source where all the power truly lies, and the individual appearances actually have no power of their own. (In our own lives, ego would try to tell us otherwise.) So it is with us, only on a much greater scale. Through meditation and stillness of the mind, we get in touch with that base light. We let it reveal itself to us, by asking it to. By being available to receive its message we open ourselves up to divine communication. We must make ourselves ready to receive. This cannot happen if we are out every night at the pub, or partying, although when we are ready for this to occur, all desire for such amusements will have fallen by the wayside. Our needs and desires will have changed, and the time will come when we have no desires at all.
When we experience God we will have no need for anything else, for we will have everything. We will have experienced the ultimate. “God is sufficient unto God.”
I have always enjoyed certain types of music, (being born into a musical family.) I would often hear a particular singer or musician, and feel that this was the type of music I wanted to do, but for one reason or another, it didn’t turn out as I expected. As a young girl I dreamed of being a singer with a group, and yet when asked to sing on stage, I would run a mile, I lacked so much confidence. I joined a light opera company later on, and enjoyed being in the chorus. When I was told I was ready for a leading role, I left the company. Later on still, I lived for years with a man in a band. Even then when the opportunity came to sing on stage, again I refused. I kept on denying my dream, and when I did do it, it never gave me the satisfaction I expected, as it was just an ego desire and nothing more. My soul was obviously trying to tell me something but I wasn’t aware enough to realize it. There was another plan for me.
It wasn’t until more recently that I found another direction for my music, but there was spiritual direction this time. When it was for my ego alone, I failed. When there was spiritual purpose behind it, it was perfect. The songs and poems always had a deeper meaning and were usually prophetic. Quite often I would be given a poem to write from the higher realms, and the purpose of the words would be revealed to me much later, sometimes years later. I would often be asked for copies by the public, as some of the words related to a particular issue in their own lives. It seemed the poetry was not just for me but for the world. The poems in this book have been coming to me for some time now, and I wasn’t sure what to do with them. It was only as I began writing this book, that I was told where to insert them by the inner voice. I had asked the source sometime ago to reveal to me the reason that the songs and poems were coming through, and as usual, I got my answer. I had to wait some time, but it was revealed after much patience. The clairvoyant readings operate the same way. I hear an inner voice, and write what I hear. This book is being written as my inner voice guides me with its words.
People say how lucky I am to have such a gift. It has nothing to do with luck. I have spent thirty years of dedication and meditation, to prepare the way for whatever purpose would be revealed to me, and in the development of this gift. I work at it everyday, sometimes several times a day. It is my life, my breath, and utter devotion to God, that has brought me to this point. It was a willingness to give up all I had in search of the Divine spirit. I went through a physical, mental and emotional, baptism of fire at certain times in my life. I have been bullied and ridiculed for my beliefs, but would do it all again, so great is the reward.
I’m not saying that everyone must go through these same experiences, perhaps others have found an easier way. But this was how it was for me. The spiritual path can be a lonely path, but depending on our degree of willingness to give up the ways of the world, it is worth it.
I would prefer to write this book with a sense of detachment and not to include my own experiences, but sometimes an example of an experience may help someone else, and it is best to speak of a situation I was involved in, rather than to try and interpret someone else’s experience of which I know nothing.
Detachment is a word that arises frequently on this path, and it is necessary to practice detachment, in order to progress. When illness or dis-ease presents itself to us, if we get too caught up in the appearance of it, we help prolong its effects. By being detached we see that it is nothing, and in seeing the nothingness of it, it disappears much more quickly. We have to shrug it off, almost like saying, ‘So?’
Of course if someone is telling you how ill they are, you can’t tell them it isn’t real to their face, or say ‘So what,’ but deep within there must be the conviction that the appearance of illness has no substance. This is one of the hardest areas to overcome. I often still struggle with it myself. I have times of absolute conviction, with wonderful results, and at other times, (during my ‘down in the valley periods,’) I do not get the results I had hoped for. The error is within myself as I have not been able to reach high enough into consciousness to get results.
Sometimes when consciousness is elevated the experience can last for weeks, even months. But there are still those times when human consciousness holds on firmly and pulls me back down. Those times are becoming less frequent thank goodness, and I will still keep going until I can spend longer on the mountain top.
Often a reality can be grasped by the intellect, but still the fruition of it in daily living can evade us. So many times have I experienced this, and I have spoken to others as well who know exactly what I am speaking of, according to their own experience. We know it, but we can’t quite bring it into experience. Then one day a light bulb goes on and we get it. The affects may last for weeks and then we lose it again. It is not that we have lost it, but it has been downloaded into our memory banks until we need it again. Once we have been made consciously aware of something it is always there, just waiting until a trigger brings it back into our awareness. If we were to hold on to everything in our conscious mind, we would go into overload.
After such an enlightening moment, it is common to go into a period where nothing seems to be occurring in our spiritual lives for a long period. That is because the new information is being assimilated into our subconscious mind, and until this occurs we are not ready to receive more.
Everything there is to know is within us, it has always been there. Through enlightenment we can bring it back into waking consciousness, and meditation is the means by which this is achieved. It is a time of remembering what once we knew.
If you picture the sun with its infinite number of sunbeams, they appear to shoot forth from the sun as individual rays. The sun, like God, is the power behind each one, and is the source. These rays have taken on an individual appearance, but they are still one with the sun. Now, imagine that the sun, (or God,) has within it everything that could possibly be known, every invention, every piece of music, every scientific fact, it has infinite knowledge. Does it not make sense that we must have access to that knowledge, as it is at our source? First we must become aware of this fact in order to access it, and knowing how, is the key. Knowing it exists, is the first step to understanding it. The practice of meditation and the stilling of the mind, is the means to achieving the understanding.
Often on opposite sides of the globe, two inventors get the same idea at the same time. It is not that one has stolen the other’s idea, it is that both, because of similar mind have attuned themselves to the source and received the same information, because it was at the level that their consciousness happened to be, simultaneously.
Someone who is not terribly interested in inventing something, would be unlikely to receive that information because their mind works in another way. But those of like mind often receive similar information from the source. Writers may use different words to describe a thought, but eventually, the time comes when it is discovered there are only so many ways a particular thing can be described, and the writings begin to sound familiar. Words are only a way of impressing an idea on the reader, it is the message behind the words that is important, and whoever the writings may come through, the source remains the same. The writers are both attuned to that particular level in consciousness. It happens in music frequently. Many melodies have a sameness about them, and this is because there is only a limited number of notes on the scale with which to play. They have to start sounding the same at some point even though there are thousands of possibilities.
There is nothing new in the universe. One only has to look at Leonardo da Vinci. He was centuries ahead of his time. Technology may not have been as advanced at that period to bring forth his ideas, but the concepts were there. Even though I understand the process, it still amazes me that I will have a spiritual revelation, only to find out that some of my friends have experienced the same thing at the same time. But as we are all one and they are part of my consciousness, this shouldn’t surprise me. It is the confirmation of the experience which I think is exciting.