The Daring Adventure
Can life embraced as a whole
be enjoyed?
Can we gather peace as we stroll
and avoid?
Where is the safety if we dare
the adventure?
What do we gain if we bare
our true nature?
A Life of Chance or Choice
~*~
House of Cards
All those days and nights, without rest
Was it a burden, was it a test?
Did my chance pass, am I now at fault?
Or did life’s drama put mine on halt?
I ponder all dos and don’ts and dares
And shield the impure with my prayers
As I regain my will, my role, my way
And courage to light myself a new day
I fight my chains and locks and guards
And my life within a house of cards
~*~
For every life I have tasted
Lies a moment I wish to erase
And for every chance that was wasted
Lies a dream I no longer chase
Past and present are not related
And prior roads only hold disgrace
There’s a new path to be navigated
For I can’t walk both and still keep pace
~*~
Heaven is Over Me
I once was a part of me
Before I felt like a refugee
And as I searched among the trees
I could feel
Heaven over me
And I believed to some degree
Though I was lost, I had to flee
But I would pray upon a bent knee
Just to feel
Heaven over me
I’ve now renewed my dignity
And my vision of what I could be
While I listen to that I can’t see
For I know
Heaven is over me
~*~
Hours pass
Days pass – yet
Time stands still
My ship has docked
Anchors dropped
Believing –
I’ve found shelter
Familiar wall
Twilight falls – I
Escape to dreams
With comfort due
Midnight blue
Dreaming –
These walls will guard me
~*~
God
Pure and gentle, flow through me
Softly come down on me – reign
Ease my sorrow, ease my pain
Come down on me – reign
Inner peace please enter me
Tranquil moment don’t refrain
I pray for stillness to remain
Come down on me – reign
Strength and belief renew in me
In quiet moments I will maintain
Through your beauty I must gain
God, come down on me – reign
~*~
Freedom
My Birds used to catch a lift
With the currents, a valued gift.
Then one day they fell from grace
and dropped like stones
Debased, erased
Their fragile wings snapped in pain
I asked, “Will my Birds fly again?”
With flying feathers damaged, broken
Freedoms grounded
No words spoken
Then swiftly they were collected
To be cared for and protected
Closely guarded, it’s not safe out there
Life’s too dangerous
So be aware
They began to lose autonomy
Lacked emotion, wanted free
Birds of the sky unable to soar
Strayed to be
Ignored no more
Then faith whispered, do not doubt
Instinct stirred and began to shout
And though rhythms were disrupted
They search for hope
In God they trusted
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Lord I pray,
May I have another day
Is there still another way
How much will I have to pay
To make the pain go away
Please don’t go, I need you to stay
What else is there more me to say
~*~
With sad eyes I watch
I observe –
Timid, wondering
What gives them the nerve?
Those women, so
Poised, pulled-together
Perfect
Forlorn I tread an
Unmarked trail –
Neutral, they mock
Because I’m so frail
I feel so
Frustrated, fatigued
Feed-up
~*~
Under My Blanket
Inside there is pain
My emotions are weak
Crying
Inner tears
Withdrawn sadness
I show I am strong
Yet inside I have fear
Hiding
Pretend faces
Portraying strength
Remembering a time
My spirit was free
Alive
Self-assured
Energies awake
Now I’m so covered
Scared of the dark
Closed
Running away
Under my blanket
~*~
Tender, fragile, weak
Life nudges me
Move on
I’ve still un-wiped
Tears in my eyes
Listen, focus, see
Life guides me
A path
Somehow that path
Is not well lit
Courage, pride, dignity
Life rewards me
A day
Have I the power
To heal my scars?
Faith, prayer, love
Life gifts me
My soul
Still so delicate
To restore alone
~*~
I leave behind what is lost
It can’t be found
Looking back just bites like frost
And keeps me bound
The past is distant, faded, old
But one day I will share
All will be told
~*~
Myself
I once looked outside for you
Running far I thought would do
But I got lost and you weren’t there
Then collapsed and ceased to care
Crying, here I am
Still searching for you
myself
I would talk to the trees alone
Hoping the winds might have known
Why I was lost, swayed by the air
Was there a cost? Was I unaware?
Still, here I am
While I search for you
myself
I’ve cried tears to swab my soul
Stretching my reach to meet control
I’ve searched for you and you weren’t there
Then found a clue I thought was rare
Now here I am
I’ve been searching hard for you
myself
Then I looked inside my heart
And I looked inside my soul
I searched for you and there you are
The midnight blue shows me a star
Here I am
Inside all along
myself
I have rested in unseen arms
Protected from all that harms
I now proceed and there you are
I now believe that you weren’t far
And here I am
Now resting in the arms of God
myself
~*~
Coming Home
Remembering vaguely
My past memories
Allowing comfort
Warming gently
My inner spirit
Nurturing slowly
Calming softly
My inner tears
Soothing quietly
Sighing contently
Now at home
Sleeping peacefully
Praying strongly
For this wish
Requesting endlessly
~*~
Hours pass
Days pass – yet
Time stands still
My ship has docked
Anchors dropped
Believing –
I’ve found shelter
Familiar wall
Twilight falls – I
Escape to dreams
With comfort due
Midnight blue
Dreaming –
These walls will guard me
~*~
I believe
I believe in the old fashioned way
Say what you mean and
Mean what you say
In generosity overflowing and
Friendly smiles always showing
In holding hands and giving a hug
Blankets that keep you warm and snug
In story books and cat to hold
Laughter and hearts of gold
The sound of rain and clocks that chime
Homemade cookies and summer time
In lovers, magic and simple things
Sharing and giving and wedding rings
In wiping tears and showing you care
Inner peace and the power of prayer
In Christmas angels and The Wizard of Oz
But mostly I believe in God
~*~
I have embraced your spirit in the
Earth
I have kissed your soul in the
Wind
I have tasted your essence in the
Water
I have seen your eyes in the
Stars
I have known your presence in my
Dreams.
~*~
Unknown Change
Why do I feel so lost and confused?
I feel my mind is being abused
Feelings of panic I can’t explain
Too intense, the agony, the pain
And I’m sure I am the one to blame
I’ve caused my suffering
I’ve caused my pain
I see my life as all too confusing
Like a race were I feel I’m losing
This confusion and pain is such a mess
I want to escape, though I must confess
I don’t know how to start, or where
And this to me just doesn’t seem fair
The answers to why are still unknown
Am I so blind I have to be shown?
I feel so heavy with this pain inside
Please leave me alone, I’ve already cried
I’m hurt, I’m scared, where can I hide?
I want to be dead or have I already died?
Can’t this feeling just surrender and pass?
Then I can find peace with myself al last
Will this chaos leave, or be understood?
Will my life appear to bring me some good?
Then a stranger grants his hand of survival
I’m over whelmed by his arrival
Will this chaos will end and be understood?
Will my life appear to bring me some good?
This stranger has helped me to become strong
Showed me the right, lead me away from the wrong
I thank the stranger for the light I now see
Is this a dream? For once I feel free
This stranger only exist in my dreams
Never reality though sometimes it seems
My dreams assure me I will have no fears
It promises me I will cry no more tears
But can reality promise dreams come true?
What are the answers? If only I knew
~*~
Tonight I will forget all sorrow
Then today becomes tomorrow
And morning breaks my dreams
Past visions still have their hold
While secrets remain untold and
Daydreams amuse nightmares
I have traveled two paths as one
Over time becoming so numb to
The difference between nothing
There is only a second so brief
I feel hope, then follows the thief
Leaving all my questions behind
Illusions in the dark air unite
Colors dance as they ignite
Candlelight snuffed by day
To stop the pain I smash the glass
Break the window, miss the brass
What is now left of my brittle mind?
Shattered panes have made me blind
~*~
I walk through the doors of faded time
And gather parts that once were mine
Hidden in ashes, soot and dust
Pieces of metal and tin, they rust
They will not fade, nor will they go
The answer to why I’ll never know
All the memories of my past
They come, they stay, they last and last
They will not fad nor will they go
The answer to why I’ll never know
~*~
Dreams of glass
Days of gold
Moments pass
And I’m not told
Hidden fear
Silent pain
Crying tears
Into the rain
Mirror image
Reflection seen
Lost in time
Another dream
All the walls
Are shades of blue
Nothings changed
Nothings new