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rank 5909
word count 47357
date submitted 16.04.2011
date updated 16.04.2011
genres: Non-fiction, Biography, Harper True...
classification: adult
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Agonies of Mind

Stephen Bentley

Following on my police career. More experiences including the bullying regeime that led me to quit. Includes my ongoing fight with PTSD and depression.

 

At six foot tall, confident natured, and above average build, it is difficult to convey how I could possibly be the subject of a bullying campaign as a police officer, but I was. My spirit was destroyed by career hungry supervisors who didn't care for my past and weren't interested in my ongoing battles with my demonic sprite, the PTSD and the dark depression that accopmanies it. I joined the police force as a lifetime vocation and not just a job. I wanted to make a difference to people's lives and create an impression of good in society. As a naive country boy I hadn't appreciated the mammoth task that lay ahead of me and now I had to face the biggest challenge of my life. I was very comfortable and confident in my role and thoroughly enjoyed my life as a front line officer. What could possibly go wrong? Enter the villain of all villains, drag up the harboured depressive thoughts and the recipe destroys all hope. All ambition is deflated and thrown out with the trash, leaving bitterness and disappointment.

 
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Kim W. wrote 1048 days ago

very easy read, and interesting. You're right - no one would ever think that a man like you would be the target for bullies. I think you're very brave to have written this. I know how hard it was for you. I have PTSD, too, and have battled depression all my life. I've always felt alone and unable to talk about it to people for these exact reasons.

Well done:)

Kim
( I'd be interested in getting your thoughts about my memoir when you have the time)

Lindsey J wrote 1052 days ago

Compelling start, liked the quotes, etc. But I would get rid of some of those big blank spaces in your prologue and make the formatting look a bit tidier. Starred and for now, watchlisted.
Lindsey J Carden To Paint A White Horse.

markwoodburn wrote 1058 days ago

Having read the first instalment of Stephen's book I have now read this. Pretty harrowing and I hope it is not an example of all police forces in the UK. On saying that, there is bullying in all walks of life and in the work area, it is up to the employers themselves to deal with it but in a society that seems to be abrogating responsibility to punish bad behaviour, I have little hope for this.
But in describing the environment the police officers live in its all to easy to forget the stresses they experience. We are used to hearing of combat stress of soldiers but what about police officers who experience such stresses every day of their working lives? Consequently, don't be too judgmental of the language and attitudes you read of here, they are too be expected sadly and anyone who thinks differently is living in a dream world. Starred, regards, Mark

Stephen Bentley wrote 1075 days ago

Thanks Brian,
Perhaps you'll enjoy the first of my efforts too which leads up to this book. I think I will have to change names and places if I publish it properly. I appreciate you comments and will return the favour.

Appropriate Defoe quote from 'Crusoe' to kick off and I read the first 8 chapters of this and did find it a fascinating tale. Easy to read and great insight into the working lives and viewpoints of police officers today. The fact that I know the places where the action takes place adds an extra layer of interest for me, but I will read more of this.

briantodd wrote 1076 days ago

Appropriate Defoe quote from 'Crusoe' to kick off and I read the first 8 chapters of this and did find it a fascinating tale. Easy to read and great insight into the working lives and viewpoints of police officers today. The fact that I know the places where the action takes place adds an extra layer of interest for me, but I will read more of this.

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