I had shifted to New Delhi with my friends after
completing MBA to set us up for better careers.
We lived at South Extension-II, one of the posh
locations of Delhi. I stayed with three of my
friends, Devesh, Rohit and Abhi. Devesh and Abhi
had girls in their lives but Rohit and I were still
single. Devesh and Abhi had 3C’s, Lajpat Nagar
and PVR Saket as weekend destinations while
Rohit and I enjoyed watching movies in theatres
like Chanakya, Chanakyapuri and Paras, Nehru
Place. Rohit and I had instructions from Devesh
and Abhi not to be at home on Sundays and other
holidays; so we had to take shelter at a neighboring
public park at Neeti Bagh. It meant to us that we
were not supposed to be at home during the day
on any of the days because on weekdays we had
to be at office and on Sundays in the public park.
Devesh was dating Manjari and Abhi was involved
with Manjari’s elder sister Sarika; fortunately or
I used the term fortunately because both the girls
needed no excuse to move out of their house if
they were together and were easily accessible to
our friends. I used the term unfortunately because
if Sarika went through some trouble with Abhi
then Devesh had to put up with a good deal of
discomfort and if Manjari had some problems
with Devesh then Abhi would be in trouble with
Sarika. We had to count the condom packets kept
in the cupboard to decide whether the day was
fortunate for them or they had to eat humble pie.
Both of them had clear cut instructions from us to
carry the used condoms along with them when
they leave. So, the girls had to keep their share of
used condoms wrapped in newspapers to dispose
off them outside.
The girls were hi-fi Delhiites and dominated
their boys. I never understood their relationships.
I heard from Devesh and Abhi that both girls
detested Rohit and me and saw us as low profile
guys with rural upbringings, perhaps because we
had no girls. I pulled together because I was aware
of the fact that the guys did not love them and had
no intention to marry them. We planned to throw
a new year’s party at our home to welcome 2003.
All our MBA batch mates were invited. Sarika
and Manjari were also invited and Devesh and
Abhi had convinced them to stay at our home
that night. There were only two rooms in the
apartment so it was decided that both the couples
will share one room and Rohit and I would restrict
ourselves in the other room. Devesh and Abhi did
not resist because they thought the room would
be dark enough and the quilts would set apart
them to enjoy sex with their partners without any
hindrance. They were also amused because they
were getting the whole night with their partners
who would be equally drunk. The party started
after all our friends had arrived. There were drinks
and cigarettes, non-vegetarian food from Nizam’s,
a very famous restaurant in Delhi and cold drinks
as well. We danced hard to the rocking numbers of
Bollywood. There was pleasure all around; people
drinking hard and partying harder.
‘Don’t you drink?’ Manjari asked viciously as she
sipped the glass in her hands.
‘No,’ I retorted and bent down to change the
‘Cigarette?’ Manjari gestured at the lightened
cigarette that she was smoking.
‘I don’t smoke. Sorry ma’am,’ I replied instantly.
‘Why do you live then?’ Sarika commented whilst
approaching me, accompanied by Abhi.
‘Enjoy life. Have fun,’ I said and sipped the glass
filled with Coca-Cola.
‘I don’t know why these people come to places
like Delhi and spoil the atmosphere. Bloody
backward people,’ Manjari murmured and started
‘Behave yourself,’ Devesh shouted at Manjari.
‘Why are you shouting? I am not your slave. Get
lost!’ Manjari yelled.
‘When will Delhiites like you learn moral values
and etiquettes?’ I gazed at Manjari and walked
towards the exit door.
‘What happened? Where are you going?’ Devesh
followed me out of the house.
‘How do you tolerate such girls who drink to
their nose and misbehave?’ I asked as I sat on the
‘She is drunk. I’ll speak to her in the morning
and tell her to express regret,’ Devesh replied
‘What will you do if she turns against your parents
and misbehaves with them after marriage?’ I asked
‘I will not marry her. I keep her for my cock,’
Devesh replied cheerfully.
‘Let me have her for my cock tonight,’ I replied.
‘What do you mean?’ Devesh asked.
‘Let me sleep with her tonight,’ I requested.
‘Have you gone nuts? Behave yourself!’ Devesh
‘What’s the harm? You are not going to marry
her. Let me show her what low standard people
can do to her if they want to. You are my friend
and belong to a similar background. How can you
tolerate such comments from a bitch?’ I said to
‘What will happen even if I agree with you? She
hates you and you are longing for her?’ Devesh
‘Nobody will know. It will remain between you
and me. Even she wouldn’t know,’ I said.
‘Are you mad? Have you gone nuts?’ Devesh
‘She is drunk. You make her drink beer as much
as she can. We’ll be through with dinner by
midnight and everybody would go back home.
You would take her to bed along with Abhi and
Sarika; Rohit and I would go to the other room.
Everybody would be badly drunk and I am sure
that Rohit would sleep as soon as he hits the bed.
Once I am sure that Rohit has slept, I would go to
the toilet. Your task would be to seduce Manjari in
the meantime and make sure that she is without
her clothes. You will meet me in the toilet taking
advantage of the darkness and would go and sleep
besides Rohit and I will go to be with your lady. I
promise you that it will be between you and me.
Now, you go back and see how the party is going. I
would be back in another 10 minutes,’ I elucidated.
I was delighted because I had hatched a plan
which would enable me to lose my virginity. I was
very keen to grab the opportunity. Everything
went in line with the plan. I went to the toilet and
Devesh met me as planned when everyone was
asleep. I gave my shirt to Devesh who went to sleep
besides Rohit. I, in only an underwear went to grab
the opportunity. As I lay down besides Manjari,
I embraced her. My feelings at that moment can
never be expressed in words.
‘How many times do you go to the toilet?’
Manjari asked. Her voice was quivering as she had
swallowed six bottles of beer.
I did not say anything as I knew that everything
would be spoilt if I opened my mouth. So, I kept my
lips over her lips and gave no way to air. I entered
her firmly and enjoyed every moment and every
posture. She was badly drunk and the room was
dark enough for her to realize that the intercourse
happened without using a condom.
‘You are too hot in bed, Amir,’ Manjari whispered
in my ears with a quivering voice as she had just
felt the orgasm.
‘How did you recognize me?’ I whispered and
pushed myself hard as I lay on top and her legs
were on my shoulders.
‘Perhaps, I did not want you to live with the
feeling that you raped me. Don’t question, just rock.
Enter me hard,’ Manjari whispered and embraced
me forcefully, making me feel out of breath.
I finished up with Manjari and as planned, went
back to the toilet where Devesh met me. I took
my shirt and went back to sleep in the other room
besides Rohit. Devesh went back to the room
and slept besides Manjari. I heard from Devesh,
the next day, that Manjari was not even aware
of the fact that she had sex the previous night.
I had decided not to reveal to Devesh what had
happened between me and Manjari the previous
night in order to avoid his male ego getting hurt.
I kept wondering how soulless Manjari was and
I was sure that Devesh and I were not the only
ones who had tasted her. She knew that she was
with me in bed and let everything happen with
her. She was not even interested in knowing how
Devesh was replaced by me in bed; possibly, she
forgot whatever happened with her the previous
Rohit and I were sitting in the room conversing
about life and career when my mobile buzzed.
‘Hello!’ I said.
‘Amir!’ a very sweet low pitch voice tangled my
‘Finally, you have fallen in love with me,’ I said as
I reclined on the chair. Rohit kept quiet as he was
taken by surprise after hearing the conversation.
‘Don’t talk rubbish. I called you up because I am
shifting to Delhi,’ the girl on the other side of the
‘My unconditional love for you is pulling you
towards me,’ I said sarcastically.
‘Will you ever change in life?’ she retorted.
‘Change should be for betterment and I think
you are better than Sofi,’ I said sarcastically and
winked at Rohit.
Rohit took no time to understand who was on the
other side of the phone line.
‘Ragini?’ asked Rohit.
‘Yes,’ I replied instantly.
‘Stop joking and listen to me properly. I have been
selected to work with the Credit and Investment
Bank at New Delhi. I’ll reach Delhi tomorrow
morning by Lucknow Mail and would go to Karol
Bagh where my uncle’s friend lives. My uncle is
accompanying me there but he has to return back to
Lucknow the same day. I have to go to New Friends
Colony where my friend Madhu lives. Since I am
new to Delhi and you are the only person I know
in Delhi, I called you up to seek your help,’ she
explained swiftly with bated breath.
‘Okay. Call me once you are free. My office is at
Connaught Place which is very near to Karol Bagh.
I’ll pick you up from there and go along with you
to New Friends Colony,’ I assured her. Ragini
thanked me and disconnected the phone.
‘You will also be busy from tomorrow and I
would be alone,’ Rohit commented resentfully.
‘Why?’ I asked.
‘With Ragini,’ Rohit said.
‘It’s not like that. We don’t have anything between
us. I was just teasing her. I have feelings for you
only, sweetie,’ I winked at Rohit and smiled.
Ragini met me at Connaught Place near Regal
Cinema. I accompanied her to her friend’s house at
New Friends Colony on my Hero Honda Passion
motorbike that was gifted to me by my father.
Her friend Madhu worked in some domestic call
centre at New Delhi and lived alone in a 650 sq. ft.
apartment. The apartment was fully furnished and
well decorated. According to Ragini, Madhu was
a very old friend and she had only prevailed on
Ragini’s parents to let her work in Delhi. Ragini’s
family was a very conservative and orthodox
Brahmin family. Her parents never wanted her to
live alone in a place like Delhi.
Her parents knew Madhu since her childhood and
it was after her assurance that they agreed to send
Ragini to Delhi. Ragini was quite absent minded
and dependent on Madhu. She was carrying a
suitcase full of clothes and some cosmetics. Apart
from her clothes and cosmetics there was nothing
she could say belonged to her in that apartment.
Ragini introduced me to Madhu as Tabassum’s
friend. So, it was very obvious that Tabassum
was also known to Madhu. Madhu showed us the
apartment she lived in and left quickly as she was
getting late for work and would be returning in the
‘You will sleep alone tonight?’ I asked
‘Not only tonight. I have to live alone every night
because Madhu works in night shifts,’ Ragini
‘Do you want me to attend to you every night?’ I
winked and said with a smile.
‘Behave yourself and leave me alone,’ she
‘I was just teasing you. Don’t take it otherwise.
Where will you have meals every day?’ I asked as
I tried to alleviate the situation.
‘I’ll manage. You don’t have to worry,’ she replied
‘I told you that it was just a joke. Don’t overreact.
I’ll accompany you for dinner tonight. You manage
from tomorrow,’ I appealed.
She agreed to dine with me. It was my first dinner
with a girl in Delhi. I was in high spirits, the night
appeared cheerful and feelings were different,
altogether. I dropped her home and returned back
to my residence. I had excitement in life after many
years. Devesh was very eager to meet and ask me
about what had happened. He was confident that
Ragini and I would fall into a relationship; when
two known people meet at an unknown place, love
is sure between them was his confident theory.
The only person who was not keyed into Ragini’s
presence in my life was Rohit who glared at us and
requested us to sleep.
I was sitting in the canteen of my office with
my boss Aditya when my phone buzzed. I saw a
landline number and ignored it being an unknown
number and also because my boss and I were
planning the allocation strategy of delinquent
customers amongst agencies which could enable
an enhanced performance. The phone buzzed again
showing the same landline number. My boss got
disturbed and I felt irritated. I attended the call
recklessly but fell back after hearing Ragini’s voice.
I was very afraid of Aditya as his father was my
father’s friend and I did not want anything wrong
to reach my father’s ears. I gestured to my boss to
excuse me for a while and went out to speak to her.
‘What happened?’ I asked.
‘When will you come?’ she asked instead.
‘Why?’ I asked.
‘I was feeling down. Madhu is also not at home,’
she replied anxiously.
‘Where is she?’ I asked.
‘She has gone out with her friend and would be
back in the evening,’ she replied.
‘Did she sleep? When did she come?’ I asked
‘She came in the afternoon, took a bath, changed
clothes and left with her friend,’ she replied.
‘Will she sleep in her office?’ I said and laughed.
‘Don’t worry. I’ll try to leave office early, today.
Wait for me at home. I’ll arrange for a prepaid
mobile card for you by the time you get one from
your office,’ I assured her.
I disconnected the phone and went back to Aditya
who was busy sipping a cup of coffee.
‘Where had you been since so long? Who had
called up?’ asked Aditya.
‘My mother had called up,’ I replied.
‘Is everything fine?’ asked Aditya
‘Yes. I’ll forward you the mail pertaining to the
payout matrix for skip cases,’ I replied as I tried to
change the topic. I did not want to extend the topic
as I was not prepared for related questions that he
could have asked.
I left office and rushed to meet Ragini not because
I was eager to meet her but because I was concerned
that she would be unaccompanied. I requested her
to accompany me to my home from where I would
drop her back after the dinner. She agreed on the
condition that I would drop her back before 10 p.m.
I came to know that she did not take lunch as she
was sluggish to step down and go to a restaurant.
I took her to a nearby tea stall at Neetibagh where
I, along with my friends took breakfast and evening
tea every day. We fondly called it ‘uncle’s shop’.
Uncle’s shop was near Punjab Today’s office and
the locality was flooded with a high profile south
Delhi crowd. It was the preferred destination
for youngsters of the locality; mostly students
preparing for IIT entrance examinations due to
the ultra modern girls residing in the area. We had
noodles and tea and reached my home after that.
I introduced her to Devesh and Rohit who had
already returned from office. Both of them liked
her nature and simplicity and she got along with
them nicely. We went to have dinner at Agarwal
restaurant which was our one stop shop for
dinner. Rakshit and Akshay also met us there to
have dinner. Ragini recognized them as she had
met them at Lucknow. Both of them were shocked
to see her with me in Delhi as they were not aware
of anything since I had not met them for the last
I found Ragini comfortable with my friends,
possibly because she had found so many people
at an unknown place on whom she could rely and
trust. It was for the first time that I found Devesh
not watching a girl with mischievous eyes. The
guys had respect in their eyes, perhaps because
she was my friend or possibly because she was
too simple. She had actually won the hearts of my
friends in the very first meeting. I had a prepaid
MTNL mobile number which I used prior to the
post paid Hutch number that I was using under a
corporate scheme. I got the card recharged for Rs.
100 and handed it over to her to use. I dropped
her at her house after dinner and left with mixed
I tried not to call her the next day but could not
control myself when she did not turn up till the
afternoon. I gathered confidence and called her on
her mobile. I came to know from her that she had
had an argument with Madhu when she returned
in the morning from office. Ragini told me that
Madhu was accompanied by a guy who was not
the one who had accompanied her a day before.
The guy did not appear decent and was watching
Ragini indelicately. Ragini protested over the entry
of such people inside the house at a time when the
house was being shared by both of them. Madhu
argued with her and told her not to interfere. I was
shocked when I heard that Madhu did not sleep
that day also and that she had visited her home
only to change clothes. I saw something fishy and
decided to investigate.
‘Where does she work?’ I asked.
‘She told me she works in some call centre. She
did not tell me the name of the organization,’ she
I took her mobile number from Ragini and thought
of getting help from Bharat who was the owner of a
detective agency. Bharat was working as a vendor
for the organization that I was working with. He
did not take much time to come out with the facts.
I was aghast and astounded when I came to know
the truth. Madhu was a high profile prostitute and
did not work in any call centre. She had fallen prey
to high aspirations and bad habits that she had
developed in the company of crooked people. I
knew that Ragini would not believe me so I had
requested Bharat to arrange for evidence. Bharat
gave me a snap in which Madhu could be seen in
a compromising state with a famous businessman.
Ragini was shocked and could not control her tears
after knowing the truth.
She was upset and devastated. I explained to
her and persuaded her that she was not safe there
and she should immediately leave from there. She
packed her suitcase and agreed to accompany
me. She left the snap and a letter for Madhu in an
envelope and left with me. I reached home and
called up Devesh, Abhi, Rohit and Rakshit to discuss
the situation. Everybody advised me to arrange for
a hostel or a paying guest accommodation for her
as early as possible and she could stay at our home
till any other arrangement was made. She had no
choice but to agree with our recommendations.
She was worried about what she would inform her
home as she could not give any logical reason as
to why she was not living with Madhu. She was
not in the condition to tell the truth to her parents
because according to her: if trust is lost, everything
is lost. She was also worried because she had to
join office from the next day.
Rohit called up his friend who was a
property dealer in South Extension-I to arrange
accommodation for her. The property dealer did
not take much time to arrange an accommodation
for Ragini. Ragini had to spend one night in my
home. Abhi and Devesh went to sleep at Rakshit
and Akshay’s home that night. Rohit and I slept in
one room and Ragini took possession of the other
room. Ragini woke me up early in the morning
and requested me to drop her to the bus stand as
she had to reach her office at Karol Bagh at 8 a.m.
I was worried as Delhi was new for her and also
because she had never commuted by bus in Delhi.
I thought I should drop her to the office as it was
her first day of work.
‘Wait, let me get ready. I’ll drop you to your
office,’ I offered sleepily.
‘I don’t want to bother you. You have already
done so much for me. I’ll manage. Just drop me at
the bus stand,’ she requested.
‘It’s the first day of your career. Start it with
something good. Going with me will be lucky for
you,’ I grinned. I did not want to reveal that I was
worried about her.
‘Be fast. I don’t want to be late on the very first day,’
she warned me and entered her room to get ready.
I got ready and kick started my motorbike. I
knew that she had not had breakfast and would
eat it alone once she reaches office.
‘I feel low if I do not get tea in the morning,’ I
‘I’ll be late. Do whatever you want to after I reach
office,’ she retorted.
‘Bus takes 45 minutes to reach Karol Bagh; I
need only 20 minutes to get there. We still have
25 minutes in hand. I’ll just have a cup of tea,’ I
She agreed and we quickly had breakfast. Since
she was purely vegetarian, she had butter toast
and tea. I was purely non-vegetarian so I had to
satisfy myself with bread and boiled eggs along
with two cups of tea. It took me 25 minutes to reach
her office due to traffic jams and she reached just in
time. I dropped her to her office and reached mine
extra early. I was over with all the necessary work
and felt like talking to Ragini and ask her how her
first day at office was so far.
‘How are you?’ I asked
‘I am fine. What about you?’ she replied.
‘I am also fine. How is life rolling out?’ I asked.
‘It’s rolling out without jerks. It’s a wonderful
organization. I am lucky to have joined an
organization like this,’ she replied.
‘I know it is good but it cannot be better than the
Bank of London,’ I replied.
‘Stop praising your organization and tell me
about today’s plan,’ she said instantly.
‘What plan?’ I asked with surprise.
‘You forgot! I have to shift today to the hostel.
Come as early as possible,’ She replied.
‘By when will you be off?’ I asked.
‘I’ll try to pick you up from office,’ I said and
disconnected the phone.
I picked her up from office and went straight to
uncle’s shop to have tea. After tea we went to the
hostel which was a two story building for working
women. The hostel was situated in the posh area
of south Delhi and had a high class crowd. I stayed
back outside the hostel and waited for her till she
kept her luggage in her allotted room. She met the
warden of the hostel who was a lady of around
65 years old. The warden explained the rules and
regulations of the hostel. She had to anyhow return
back to the hostel before 10 p.m. according to rules
of the hostel. It was 8 p.m. and we still had two
hours with us.
‘Let’s go to Ansal Plaza,’ I offered.
‘Please call Rohit also. I want to thank him. He
has helped me a lot in searching for this wonderful
hostel,’ she said.
I called up Rohit and told him to meet us at Ansal
Plaza. It was a mall that every youngster was crazy
about. It was the place for the rich and high-class.
It was always bustling. It was a favorite place for
my friends who never refused to visit it because of
good, hi-fi, model-type girls. It was a pleasure to
stare at such girls. We rarely bought anything from
there because our pockets did not allow it. Rohit
was also accompanied by Devesh and Abhi.
We enjoyed a lot that day. Ragini had bonded well
with my friends and felt comfortable with them.
She had become a part of the group. She had very
soon become a habit for me. My day started with
seeing her off at the bus stop in South Extension-I.
She called me every day in the morning to wake
me up so that we could meet and have tea together
at uncle’s shop. I never called off my day without
meeting her even if it was too late. I had developed
good relationships with her friends and room
partners in the hostel.
I always tried to leave office by 7 p.m. in order
to meet her. She had started accompanying me
and Rohit on weekends to hang-out and watch
movies. Devesh and Abhi had pre-decided and
scheduled plans for Sundays and other holidays.
Now, Ragini had also joined me and Rohit in
staying out of home on holidays. Finally, Rohit
and I had stopped counting or searching for used
and unused condom packets to decide the fate of
our friends. She accompanied me in all that I did.
I was getting trapped in a situation which I never
wanted in my life.
It was a Saturday noon when Devesh’s phone call
buzzed my phone.
‘Will you accompany us to watch a movie?’ asked
‘Whom?’ I asked astonished.
‘Manjari and me,’ he replied. I could not control
myself and started laughing.
‘Don’t take me with her. I still remember that night.
I am still longing for her. Please do something. I’ll
be grateful to you. I’ll pay for your beer bottles,’ I
‘Fuck off. I am not a pimp,’ he said.
‘Where is Abhi? Is he not going?’ I asked.
‘He has developed some issues with Sarika. He is
in the office,’ he replied.
‘Abhi has been kicked on his ass so you cannot
use a condom today,’ I laughed wickedly.
‘Tell me if you are going. Don’t bark otherwise,’
he said rudely.
‘Okay, I’ll meet you at 3C’s. I’ll call Rohit also,’ I said.
‘Bring Ragini also.’ he requested.
I fixed up with Ragini and Rohit and reached
Lajpat Nagar at about 5 p.m. The show was
scheduled to start at 5:30 p.m. Devesh and Manjari
had also reached and were roaming around
together. A stall was set up by ICICI Prudential
Ltd. at the entrance of the Cineplex. They had
organized a game in which they had prepared
a small golf ground artificially. A ball was to be
pushed into a hole with the help of a golf stick.
People were trying the game and a chocolate was
kept as the prize for a successful participant.
‘Why don’t you try?’ Manjari asked me. Manjari
had a wicked smile on her face.
‘I have not even touched a golf stick in my life,’
‘Try it once,’ Rohit requested.
‘What’s the harm in trying? Max to max you’ll
fail. Everybody is losing. Try it once,’ Ragini tried
to convince me.
‘Okay. Let me try,’ I said as I gripped the golf
stick in my hand.
‘Let me see how much you love Ragini,’ Manjari
Manjari’s voice pinched me. I could not react. I
closed my eyes, breathed deeply, concentrated on
the hole and hit the ball. The ball went straight into
the hole. I don’t know how I did it but it actually
‘You proved that you love her very much,’
Manjari said sarcastically and patted my cock
whilst concealing her action from everyone.
Nobody could see as Devesh, Rohit and Ragini
had moved ahead and Manjari and I were left
behind. I was stunned by her action as I was under
the impression that she had forgotten whatever
happened between us that night.
‘Show me how much you love Devesh. I know
you will lose,’ I said as we walked towards the
‘Shall I notify her of your obsession when you
are in bed with a girl?’ Manjari whispered and
winked. She had lost the remaining respect that I
could have had for her. I ignored her teasing and
raced towards my friends who had already entered
I was in fact astonished as to how I was able to
push the ball in the hole. From the core of my heart
I was contented and my thoughts were wonderful.
I don’t know how and why it happened but I was
proud of myself possibly because it let Manjari
down or perhaps because I had won for Ragini.
‘What kind of person are you? On one hand you
were searching for true love and on the other hand
you fucked a girl and that too without her consent,’
Pinaki asked mockingly.
‘She was very well aware of what had happened.
She was equally involved and evenly satiated,’
Amir replied to shield himself.
‘Why did you do that?’ Pinaki asked Amir
‘I wanted to take revenge,’ Amir replied bluntly.
‘What kind of revenge is this? The girl from
whom revenge was taken could never realize that
she had suffered,’ I commented.
‘Prostitutes don’t suffer. They make you suffer.
You would have also opted if you would have got
the opportunity,’ Amir replied recklessly.
‘I thought that you were a geek but you turned
out to be an opportunist,’ Pinaki commented and
laughed with a wink.
‘Virginity is never divinity but lack of opportunity,’
Amir winked and grinned.
‘You have ditched Ragini,’ Pinaki commented
‘I was not involved with her when I did that.
In fact, I was not involved with anyone at that
moment. I have never ditched her,’ Amir said.
‘You said that you wanted true love in your life.
Are you fickle minded?’ Pinaki asked.
‘Will you remain hungry if you wish to have
non-vegetarian food but only vegetarian food is
available?’ Amir asked bluntly.
We were stunned after hearing Amir’s reply. We
thought not to waste more time asking illogical
questions and requested Amir to continue with his