"Help! Someone come quickly" Squealed Emma from where I was laying in the kitchen.
I could only just make out what she shouted. Everything was a blur, the ringing in my ears was getting louder and the darkness was fading in faster. I could smell the metallic of my blood; it was probably staining the white tiles by now. I must of fell to the freezing, hard stained floor as the cold stung the bare of my back just under my vest top.
"What the hell happened?" Shirked Leanne
"I don't know I just came in and she was lying like this" As Emma said this her voice broke and tears ran down her face.
"Well don't just stand there, ring the ambulance!!" Demanded Leanne.
Emma rushed off to go ring the ambulance. Still I could hardly see your hear anything. My mum was above me shaking me but I couldn't respond. All I could do was lay there. I was soon going to pass out. I could only just make out my mums shape all it was a fading blur. The voices were now silent and the darkness was drawing in. My leg had become numb, well for a matter of fact I couldn't feel anything. I knew the ambulance would be here soon. But I was scared it would be too late. Oh I wasn't scared that could die, I was scared for my mum and sister, I don't know how they would cope.
I woke up to see a blue and white striped curtain around me, the floor looked wood but soft, the bed I was laid in wasn't that comfy. I heard people talking behind the curtain I wasn't sure who they were though...
"How is she?" ...That voice I recognised.
"Her stats are looking up. You should be able to go see her now"
"Thanks nurse Sarah" Ah nurse! I'm in hospital.
Slowly the curtain opened and I was face to face with my mum. I wasn't sure what to say, what to do to be honest I wasn't sure whether to smile or not. My mum looked happy to see me but I knew there was something she wanted to ask so badly. Everyone will be asking the same question and I will be giving the same answer.
"How you feeling Hun?"
"I'm fine mum thanks. How are you feeling?"
"I'm fine just been worried sick about you."
"I know mum. I'm sorry."
"What you sorry for?"
"Yeah it does tell me. I'm your mother you can tell me."
"I did it to myself OKAY!! Don't ask why. Don't ask anything else okay."
"Don't. I said no more questions."
My mum and I chatted for a bit after that. I had been in here for a month now and would probably be out next week if things go okay. The nurse said I had hit a main artery and that I’m lucky to be alive. I hope I am lucky to be alive.
I'm looking forward to getting out of here. The food is terrible, the other kids are complaining all the time, the nurses are always gossiping and if you try to talk to them they just ignore you. The place smells like it hasn't been cleaned in a while and I haven't seen any cleaners either. This hospital must be the worst rated.
I had been in hospital for about 2 months. I'm finally leaving.
It’s my first day back at school after about 2 and half months. My mum hasn't stopped asking me if I’m alright since I came home. Now it’s time for me to suck it up and go back to school. I have been putting this day of for ages. School is the main reason why I did what I did. I'm not popular but sometimes I wish I was just so they wouldn't say out. My best friend Naomi knows how hard it is for me at school. All the nasty and unfair comments of the popular people. I'm sure they love making my life hell.
*Ding Dong* I ran towards the door. I opened it and flung myself at Naomi. It’s been so long since I have seen her. We are going to have a mega check up on the way to school. She was looking like she normally did. Perfect. Her long blond hair shaped her face perfectly, her size 6 skinny jeans and her pink and white tank top made her look like a goddess. I wish I looked like instead of my size 10 skinny jeans. My Brown hair was straight as it normally was, it didn't look shinny just looked plain old dull.
"So how’s school been without me?"
"Boring. People have been saying stuff about you."
"Oh, what they been saying? The normal stuff?"
"No not really. Liz spreaded round that you decided to commit suicide because you couldn't deal with it anymore. People changed the story though and said that you did it because you were scared of telling people you're a lesbian." Naomi laughed at the last bit.
"You okay Ruby?"
"Yeah I'm fine don’t worry about it."
We were walking up the school drive now. Nothing seems to have changed. The trees next to the road were still there, the road still had holes in. The car exhaust's spat out the fumes as they went past making me and Naomi cough. We were nearly at school and I wasn't looking forward to the comments. I wondered what everyone would be like when they saw me walk in with Naomi.
As we walked in our form room I could hear people whispering about me, things like "What’s she doing here?" "Isn't she meant to be dead?" some people were even sad enough to throw stuff at me. How childish. Naomi lost her cool when something hit her by accident she screamed how childish they were and can’t they just get over themselves. She does make me laugh sometimes.