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"The difference between the almost-right word and the right word is really a large matter. It's the difference between the lightning and the lightning bug." -- Mark Twain

Regarding The Existence Game, psychiatrist David Band has this to say:
"As a practicing psychiatrist with extensive experience working with Borderline individuals, I was struck by how accurately Adams portrays the main character, Alex Moser, and the development of her illness. Additionally, The Existence Game provides one of the most moving accounts - from the perspective of a child - of what experiencing childhood sexual abuse is like, and the problems that develop in relation to this severe trauma. This is not just a story of illness, but a remarkable, heartwarming story of recovery. Beautifully written and gripping from the start, Adams takes us on a ride into a hidden, taboo world that most people never know exists, and leads us out again, better human beings for the experience." - David M. Band, MD. is the Medical Director and CEO of Sterling Behavioral Health Services in Ashburn, Virginia.

A heartfelt Thank You to everyone who has offered suggestions and support. You know I appreciate it! I'm currently working on an in-depth re-write, so limited time on line here, but getting to things as I'm able.

PLEASE NOTE: The Existence Game is Fiction. My MC, Alex, and this window into her life, is based on experiences I've had, but she is not me. She's a fictitious character (and in some cases a good deal more sane and more pleasant than I've been!). Because it's written in the first person, I want to be clear, this is not a memoir. (I thought about writing a memoir, but can't remember so many things it would have mostly been blank pages! Oy!) Thanks for reading.

Bio.... I am 56, happily married, two grown children, in addition to writing, I practice Aikido. We share our home and our lives with two wonderful dogs and two equally wonderful cats. The two fish are a mystery.

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Happy reading and writing,

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(At one point I had over 100 books listed, took them all down, it was ridiculous)
Among my all-time (possibly not spelled correctly) favorites -- J.R.R. Tolkien, Mark Twain, Barbara Kingsolver, Anne McCaffrey, Roger Zelazney, Orson Scott Card, C.S. Lewis, Kathryn Stockett, Harper Lee, Anne Fadiman, Rebecca Skloot, Sue Monk Kidd, Joanne Greenberg, Antoine de Saint-Exupery, Jack London, Cynthia Rylant, many more....

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1st DRAFT post HC review of Th....

Judy Adams

After HC review, taking their suggestions and those of many Authonomites, this is the first new attempt. Any suggestions sincerely appreciated!!

HC and several Authonomy friends have suggested that The Existence Game has far too much narrative/exposition and too little dialogue and action. I'm working on rewriting, and am concerned that without MC Alex's back story being presented in the first couple of chapters, (which it's done with narrative and exposition) she won't be a particularly engaging character because readers won't really understand much about her quirkiness or dysfunctional behavior. I'm working hard to try to create an interesting, compelling character in Alex and would be very grateful for any ideas anyone has. This is the first draft rewrite of The Existence Game, posted as a separate story. Thanks very much!!


The Existence Game

J.S. Adams

Told with warmth, insight, and humor, The Existence Game portrays the life of Alex Moser, a young woman suffering from and overcoming Borderline Personality Disorder.

“...I investigated every place in my bedroom that a murderer might hide -- even, I'm not kidding, my desk drawers... then got into my closet, pulling shoes, comic books and other stuff over me, so the murderers wouldn't see me. They'd figure I was a pile of junk. But even then, the pile of junk couldn't get to sleep. I hallucinated the sound of footsteps, breathing, even threatening whispers. Roasting under the blankets, I read by flashlight until I couldn't keep my eyes open.”

Alex Moser, a self-declared nutcase, is at the end of her rope. Finding little meaning in a life governed by innumerable phobias, she finally gives suicide a shot, but… “I couldn’t even get that right!” she moans upon awakening in the hospital. The Existence Game chronicles two months in Alex’s life, detailing her path from suicide attempt to long-awaited healing. Peopled with complex, intriguing characters and situations, this is an altogether inspirational and uplifting story.


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Maevesleibhin wrote 3 days ago

Judy, I am so sorry about your mother. I know it is hard. l My d....

Maevesleibhin wrote 6 days ago

I am enjoying the new version so far. (Through chapter 2). I think it....

Maevesleibhin wrote 11 days ago

I have been wallowing in self pity because of the fresh meat comment.....

TheImpeccableEditor wrote 11 days ago

No harm in asking! I still make time to review some pitches here, so ....

evwalker wrote 17 days ago

You are most welcome! I'm glad to have been of some help. Will get....

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I wrote 155 days ago

Foreword by the transcriber -- ha ha ha, that's a good one! *** Foreword by the NSA -- continuing laughter *** The Mission -- Nice P.Dick header "Years of writing essays on foreign language extracts where I knew three nouns and suspected two verbs had given me a confidence in my abili... view book

I wrote 158 days ago

I've read well into this story and having worked total crap jobs in my life, I'd say this captures low-wage dead-end mind-numbing work as well as it is possible to capture it. More than comedic, Amazzoff is serious food for thought - the thought that so many of us really are slaves to a system that... view book

I wrote 172 days ago

Back for more... This is so right on target. All of it. The bits with Jim and John, how they don't get what's going on and are so mindless - YES! This is just what it's like, having a functioning brain in a job filled with people who either don't have brains or have their brains turned off. B... view book

I wrote 180 days ago

A month ago I swooped in to have a peak and quickly left this message: "This is brilliant. I didn't have any time to read this evening, and I have a host of books ahead of this one, but just stopped in for a peak to see whether to bump someone out of my totally full watch list to make room for th... view book

I wrote 202 days ago

Authonomy Chapter One - Prologue Excellent beginning, you've definitely got my attention. Well crafted sentences, hot topic, have to read more. Authonomy Chapter Two - Chapter One Can't say I'm immediately overly fond of the MC, but the narrative voice is very engaging, and there are some thin... view book

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